I am not! I am a high functioning bipolar. I get up I shower I go to work i have never lost a job I socialize etc. I am not an alcoholic or a druggie. I have never been to jail. you get the point.

I get really bad suicidal urges. I entered IOP for help. I learned that I need to be straight forward even if I have the urge to lie about supplies etc. so I was. She asked do you have supplies and I was straight forward. I do! She did not do anything! It was like ok. No assistance.

I dropped off my medicine a while ago so maybe they feel I got what I deserve! I dropped it because I was having trouble staying awake at work after sleeping 12+ hrs a night and it makes me vomit. Why would anyone want to live this way! They did not care. Did not suggest anything. I have been in so many situations where I have been suicidal that I am not taken serious and I feel alone. I don't get any attention from it so I know they can't possibly think I am doing it for that! Anyway I am wondering if others feel the same way.