life is something that comes before death, but in the same way, life is something that comes before death. Is the glass half empty or half full , kinda is what I'm saying. I'm not sure all the time what really to live for. So many things are lost to me, as well. Each person is different but look around you and see all the smiling faces... not all of them are truly happy, and I'm sure many of them are feigning happiness at times, but if those people can have some enjoyment in life, there's something in life to enjoy, even for you, you just have to find it and fight for it. That can and will be hard. But in the end, the harder you work at something the more sense of achievement you can have once you have finished the struggle

and you're not weak, it can be so hard sometimes

Don't give up

and, how long has this been going on for you, if you want to talk about it?