Hi Starry. Try to stop thoughts of judging yourself: wasting life, etc. Right now you are fighting for your life and that is a noble fight.

Isolation is hard. It is one of the worst aspects of depression and hard, for me at least, to shake even though I know it would be the best thing for me.

Volunteering is an EXCELLENT idea. Do you know the nature of the volunteer work you want? I know a lot of people who volunteer at animal shelters if that's something you would be up for. I think it would be easy to get started if you just go to and ask your local animal shelter. I think working with the animals gives a great added benefit to people suffering depression because animals seem to really help with that.

Another idea to get yourself around people is a local depression support group. I attend groups of DBSA (Depression and Bipolar Support Alliance). If you are in the US they are nationwide. They are peer groups... No therapy, just people sharing their stories and offering suggestions and support. Sometimes it is a great relief to just be with a group of people you can describe what you are going through and they understand without judgement or telling you to "cheer up". Also sometimes even if you don't feel like talking just being with a group and seeing what they are all doing and helping each other can be beneficial.

You can find a group here: Find a support Group - Depression and Bipolar Support Alliance