so it took me 4 whole days to figure out exactly what caused me to get triggered during my session Saturday, t knows it now cuz I sent it to her last night, and she said we'll talk about all of it, but this makes me want to talk to her sooner than 9 days from now. Well, it's not like this is something I'm going to forget, some deep stuff from many many years ago, perhaps the days in between that include a short vacation with h will be a way to kinda blow out some cobwebs or something and I'll be all refreshed and ready to really dig in and talk about it with her when I go back again. I shall think positive.