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i have thought hard on this stuff for a long time. i just don't know what my T could do to affect me. (no, i don't expect him to fix me)

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Ditto for me. Maybe not really that long but definitely hard. (Length is still measured in waking hours for me at this point.)

I don't think I really expect my T to fix me. I think I want (need) is a new perspective. I think my defensiveness has skewed my ability to interpret and analyze my situation logically and to see all of the options available to me. I think it has made me see the world dichotomously or in a only right or wrong way. For example I am unhappy with my marriage, so the only logical choice for me is to discontinue it. Simple solutions seem to evade me at the moment.

In my first T session my therapist, after hearing me describe one of my problems, said...'sounds like you and your husband need to talk about what is acceptable discipline.' I left that session furious! "What the *&^%, I spent $150 to be told that I need to talk to my husband--No %#@&#!!" The next day when I settled down I attempted unsuccessfully to talk to my husband about discipline. It was a complete disaster, things blew up quickly and we ended up in shouting match. However, we did succeed in communicating with each other that we were not on the same page and that it was a major problem for BOTH of us.

I 'm feeling very closed minded at this point. However, some of the assumptions that I have held in my very core have been challenged and have been called into question recently. This has caused ....a great disturbance in the force so to speak.

The catch-22 I'm in is how do I get this fresh perspective if I don't admit the problems and don't disclose the details?