Yes. It has led me to ip. After my most recent episode I felt like he has completely abandoned me and I feel like I have lost my soul. Seriously. The connection I had is gone. I used to pray at night and really feel a connection. I can't seem to regain that connection. I feel like I went too far too the other side and just lost myself in it. I don't know. I went to church sunday and I teared up in the begining. But, the feelings still there. I have to do some soul searching. I was considering finding a shaman. I don't know the answer to this. I think we have to do some digging.