So my session today was kind of difficult and stilted for a number of reasons. One of those reasons was because of one topic in particular. I was telling T how I (still) idealise her even though I felt disappointed at times (like when she said she won't hug me). T then asked me if I ever wonder what she is like in her everyday life and if I've ever imagined what her life is like. I felt so awkward and guilty because I actually know quite a bit about her life from my "internet research". I actually had to go really out of my way to find info on her because she uses her maiden name for work. I even found home videos that her husband uploaded to youtube. I could never tell T any of this, she would be so creeped out and I'm scared she would terminate me. I feel so guilty though .

Have any of you ever told your T that you have googled/facebook stalked them? How did they react?