Well, I have some resolution. After a painful year of struggles with my wife we have decided to have a trail separation, she is going to leave and go stay somewhere else, no contact with the kids for two weeks while she settles in and clears her head. Then we will share custody, we hammered out the details in marriage counseling yesterday, and there are rules. We are not supposed to see other people, nor are we to just detach and ignore the issue. It is meant to be a time of introspection.

We will see how it goes, I was shocked to see her start to cry when we decided to do this. She stated that she is afraid that I wont take her back. She also stated that she is close to a breakdown and really needs the alone time. I don't know how I feel, I kind of don't feel. I am pretty numb, and what sucks is that this whole ordeal has affected my titration off of my Klonopin, I am back up to 2mg a day to keep the anxiety at bay. I need to keep things together now so that I can support my children. Adulting is hard.