well.. we had our talk on tuesday. *i'm blurry on the details because my nerves and adrenaline were pumping so hard that I can't even remember it all.

i didn't end up going with sophiesmom's suggestion, though i was on fence until the last minute. i almost flaked out, but i eventually brought up the issue of things feeling different between us lately and that i'd like to talk about it since we never had really talked about "us" previously. *before i could even really get into what i was going to say, she started to breakdown crying.. apparently she'd been dealing with a lot of things in her life. she apologized for*seeming distant, and said it had nothing to do with me. *she hasn't "been herself" and she's just been really unsure about things in her life*lately due to all that's going on. *she was pretty upset, and i was a little hesitant at *that point to start making it about me and what i felt, but i did tell her that though i*may not have really shown it, that I really do like her and I want to be a part of her life. *i*mentioned how much fun it is to spend time with her and that i*want more of that, and I wanted to see what could grow out of that (or something like that, I really can't remember). *she said that she really liked spending time with me too, apologized again for being withdrawn, and said she's just trying to get through this tough stretch. * i had my arm around her, just consoling her at this point, and told her that i want to be there to help her however i can. *she smiled and thanked me.**then we had a good long hug at the end of it.

so.. i'm still a little unsure about where things stand as far as we go. *it definitely went in an unexpected direction there.. *and i didn't quite get a chance to say everything i may have wanted. *but there were a couple of positive signs i guess: *she felt comfortable opening up to me about these personal issues. *she did say she enjoyed spending time with me. * so, i'm still not 100% on where "we" are, but it seems like maybe there could be some*chance of something*happening. *i felt pretty good as i was leaving there, but some uncertainty has crept back in as i *thought about it more. *

i decided that after tuesday night, that i wasn't going to contact her first. *she texted me in the afternoon and was pretty chatty through the evening - though there was*no mention of what we talked about. *not sure what to think *about that..

so that's basically where things are. *i appreciate all the support and advice everyone's given. *it felt good to open up with her (a bit) on how i felt, *though it would *have *been nice to get full clarity on *how she feels about me.***the saga continues i guess..*i feel like i need to followup with her on our talk soon. *just trying to figure out the when and how.

all i know is that i've been a lot less stressed over the last 24 hours!

thanks again everyone