Yesterday I was realy annoyed.

I don't like my family (my mother's brothers and almost all my cousins from this side of the family).
This is not the case of thinking I am smarter than them (that in fact I think), but I can't stand their very limited view about the world and their certainty about them being the only ones that realy understand the world and who says otherwise being stupid.

They are realy dumb and almost all their conversations end up on something about spirituality. A big non sense mixing of different notions that don't belong to any religion and dispasing any different religion from the one they were brought on, even if what they say goes against they own, very loved, religion.

And the worst thing is that they think who doesn't believe what they do is the dumb one, and I, having much much broader knowledge than them, have to place my head down and pretend I agree with everything they say and that it is the true. It is not worth it to try to change their prespective or at least make them agree that there may me other perspectives out there that also should be respected, and may be, at least, as true as they are.

I know religion is a very polemic topic, but from what I see, people that say that have the same religion, have so random believes, very different from other people from the same religion. Religion has only brought me pain and sadness over the years, while restringing my and my believes and ideas. My family think they are very religious, but from my point of view, I just see dumb people, with any critical idea, going after every magic idea, and falling for every explanation of life if it envolves some mysticism. Even if it goes against what their religion is supose to believe.

What a mixture my family makes. If I was an outside viewer I would probalby laugh. But my mother has the same type of believes, as my mother's parents and my mother's brother's. So I am supose to have them and if I don't my soul is lost to the devil and all of them think I am in some sort of mortal sin. When it is only my choice!!!
This realy gets me angry.

It is like someone is trying to cutt off your thinking freedom while believing in some of the most random stupid ideas.

And when this family members start to mixing spirituality with health and mental health and possetions and people who talk with spirits and a lot of concepts some probably made up by them I go nuts.

Family meetings are the worst.
And it is not only in this matter that my familly members are dumb...they are dumb in general. No one seems to have the gift of empathy, to understand the others. My mother and a ridiculous aunt of mine are not in good terms. My grandmother was trying to explain to me that it was all the devils fault! Come on! I think it is their personalities that crash.
My grandmother talks bad about everyone to everyone, has some stupid demands, worship some sons while expect the others to do everything she wants. And without understandind she contributes to turn them against each other. In the end, blames the devil. (By the way I love my grandmother, she just has her faults, that she doesn't understant she has).

These feuds inside the family make my grandmother very said, and she thinks she is totaly innocent of them. For her, the best way to end them is to unite the family at some meal and maybe make a speech about god and some bring some prays in the midle. Family meetings are recipes for more disaster. And for me they are painful because I have to listen to my family ignorant ideas and stupid behaviours, and just smille and pretend I agree.

Just sit in the small table, in the small room, most of the times the kids table, because men sit in the main table. Women serve dinner, cook and clean. My auncles are loud people without any general culture, the family is too big, and everyone of them thinks he is the smartest person in the room.

One of my uncles loves to give health advice, and explain the different diseases... Maybe if I didn't know nothing it would be ok, but almost what he says is wrong. And still my grandmother believes him more than she believes me and my sister.