I am definitely going through a grieving process, it is what kicked off my depression and just as I was recovering I ended up losing him again in a more final way and I know I am full fledged grieving over it, I can see the elements of grieving in my emotions. I am also in great pain over the fact that I am the type of person who can let one other person effect me so deeply. I like that I am sensitive, but I am too sensitive and immature in matters like these. It is so bad that it has become a defect instead of an asset.