I looked him up when i first started, mostly because I looked up my last (bad) T too late and found out his license was "warned" for unethical behavior with a client (not a surprise considering how unethical he was with me) and he had done a bad thing to an animal. All things I would have liked to know prior and would have saved me months of bad therapy.

Now I still look him up on occasion, mostly when he's on vacation like now, because I miss him. I found a video of a lecture he did at a conference once and it surprised me when I first watched it because I have a problem looking at him in session. Being able to see who he really is and hearing the ideas he really has from the lecture has helped me become more comfortable with him.

I don't think I'll ever tell him. He may be mad, and I would be sad if he was. I think it is good in a way being able to know he really is a good guy though.