It was my 21st birthday yesterday and it was one of the worst birthdays I've ever had. A good friend of mine hurt my feelings and triggered a terrible breakdown that lasted for hours. I couldn't stop crying. When I went to go out and try to have fun unfortunate circumstances got in the way of that too, so my mood worsened (being vague because I'm too mentally exhausted to explain it in full). I went home excited at least to eat cake only to be treated like **** by my mom over skype. I'm sick of her telling me that I'm essentially a burden to everyone and rubbing in my face how I need to get a job when I've never been mentally stable enough to work...despite me telling her over and over that I'm going to therapy and doing my best to get better. When I told her my birthday consisted of mainly breakdowns, she asked how my boyfriend is coping with that. "People get affected by your meltdowns"....as if I'm not the one suffering.

I just wanted to have a good birthday and my boyfriend tried his best to make it a good one. I just don't know why people I consider friends or family have to make me feel so miserable.