I can relate. I just lost my boyfriend due to my lack of self confidence, lack of communication,procrastination,and the unknown of my future. He hates that I live day by day. I take care of my elderly mom, right now she is my priority, and I'm on many meds,have a therapist and psychiatrist. I'm finding out that I don't share my feeling due to past PTSD. I would like someone as I am, not having to become someone else.