hello im ok.
i cried today because i was realizing how bad my social anxiety was.

this saturday is my birthday and people are trying to bring me out of the house but all this activity is triggering me. i cant function right being out of the house everyday for many hours even though its what i want to do sometimes. im so used to staying at home and doing not much. spending the day by myself, you know?

so i cried a bit today with having activity everyday. its a stress thing, you know? i realized how much i hate being around people. i feel like maybe im just someone who needs someones presence but doesnt actually want to spend all this time with people. idk.

i start school back on the 29th.