Hi

I recently quit another forum because I had fallen in love with a man who is a member there (we met up and everything, was not complete fantasy and we were intimate on two occasions but did not have sex). I knew I had to leave as I was too sensitive to his reactions to my posts, and if he liked one where someone was criticising me that was enough to set me off on a downer. Now if I ever look at what's going on on that forum (I know I shouldn't) I just get upset when I see his posts. Prior to me leaving we fell out and haven't spoken since, which I find heartbreaking. All this over a few posts! I think he is probably relieved I have gone and left him alone. I think he just saw me as a nuisance.

The worst thing is I had kind of been seeing someone else and prior to us falling out the guy I'm in love with said he was happy for me. But I've had to end it and feel pretty guilty as I know this guy is quite into me, but I still pine for the forum guy. Me and the new guy were intimate last night and I then went to sleep and dreamt of the forum guy, which I think was a wake up call to me ending it with the new guy today. I feel awful that I'd just been with the guy and dreamt about someone else.

My question is how do you move on from someone who you love and miss desperately but is ignoring you? He lives hundreds of miles away which you would think would help but it hasn't. I sacrificed a nice guy for him and have decided to stay single as I can't get over it. What's worse is that I think he hates me. It's making me really depressed and I don't know what to do other than eat sugary foods and drink alcohol.