I am at a professional development conference where we go from one speaker to another who tries to motivate us.

I feel totally overwhelmed about actually doing all that actually doing my job successfully requires. So, while all the other people are thinking about how they can rush out and implement all this info, I am thinking about how I am really thinking about this brief time away as a God-send because I am so cracked up.

I am wearing a business suit and I know that I have self-inflicted bruises no one would ever dream under my clothes.

The motivational speakers are pretending they are such polished professionals who are always up,up,up and super successful. I asked one if he has ever really met anyone who is truly as consistently focused as he is professing to be. I'm thinking that these speakers are possibly not that much less desperate IRL than I am and are just as good as putting on an act as I. The speaker insisted before the whole audience with a straight face that, yes,, he is always so great.

So, all the things they are saying to do to be a leader in business, I am thinking about how I can do to just try to have a decent marriage. I have to be the leader to get my relationship to be something I can live with. No, my h will never do what I have been unsuccessful at trying to get. Therefore, I am a bad leader.

IDK, I'm just a desperate housewife in a business suit. Phoney baloney.,