My psychiatrist and therapist think I am doing great because I still have a full time job in the medical field. I have been married 23yrs and have 2 adult children and an 8yo. I am active in my church and occasionally will run half-marathons.
The thing is although I know how blessed I have been I would welcome a head on car crash or a quick spreading cancer. I constantly feel guilty for things I have or have not done. And my favorite way to spend my time is sleeping. So doing well on the outside means nothing to me. It's a show. And it is harder and harder to get up and play that part.