In our last session I talked to him about one of the past therapists that I had. I remember that I expressed anger at her.

I sent him an email. I said that in our last session I expressed anger at her, but I thought that really I was feeling anger towards him.

(Part of that is about how understanding he would be at my feeling anger at her. If he was okay with that then maybe it would be safe for me to feel anger at him. If he wasn't okay with me expressing anger at her then I guess it wouldn't be okay for me to express anger with him).

He... Didn't see how my expressing anger at her was relevant, I guess.

I said in the email that sometimes I might be defending / avoiding. That I'm not so good at expressing how I feel sometimes - because sometimes I don't know how I feel. But that sometimes I wasn't so good at expressing how I feel because I'm so very fragile... I think I'm much more fragile than he appreciates... That I need to be able to function.

He emailed me back last night. Some brief comment on how it is important for me to be able to function - how it is necessary, in fact.

I think I said in the email that it doesn't matter how much time we do or do not have to work together - I need to be able to function.

I really think that sometimes... He has his own view on what 'progressive' therapy consists in and what constitues 'avoidance' . What he fails to get... Is how much I'm trying to disclose (that is hard for me) or how much I'm defending because that is what I need to do in order to be able to function.

It is a fairly critical point, I guess...

But... I really don't think he understands about how vulnerable I am. And I really do think... That his theory guides him (at times) in a way that is disrespectful of what I'm trying to do with our time together.

In the gentlest possible way...