So I haven't been religious ever, really. I've dabbled I guess. In Buddhism, Unitarian Universalism... but not so much anything else. In recent months I have felt a renewed interest in trying to have some sort of relationship with God. T is a Christian, and very anchored in his faith. Recently, I asked T to pray for me, and he said he has never been asked that before but he said he would do it. He seemed pleased that I asked. When I asked I said I wasn't sure why the idea of him praying for me appeals to me so much. Do I just feel I need all the help I can get? Or am I trying to feel closer to T, like getting a virtual hug? Am I trying to get him to like me more? The thought of him praying to God on my behalf makes me feel very emotional. In the past I have had issues being chameleon like in relationships, and losing myself somewhat. Is this a trait common for people with c-PTSD, or insecure attachments? Anyway, I'm really confused and want to talk more about this with him but I also want to just continue with it as is, knowing he talks to God on my behalf. It makes me feel loved. Thoughts?