I hear you my friend, I'm sorry for my shallow response before.

How is it you see that person when you go outside?

I do think you need something to take your mind off your illness. I do think you should take things easy until you have a good day. (That's what I do) just rest and store up your energy. Then if you can make an appt with a counselor. Because I'm worried that your isolation will only feed your depression.

If not a counselor I would try reaching out in a support group, with irl people. Just to vent if nothing else.

Your next job should definitely be around new people. Something low key, like a waiter/waitress? Maybe.

Hmm um not sure if I'm helping or not. You seem like someone who could make friends easily. Very open.☺