In the dream we were together and he came to visit me where I lived, which he would never do even if he was interested as he hates travelling. He lives hundreds of miles away. So I don't think I have resolved things in my mind. But it helps talking to people here about it, as he isn't on this forum and he won't be reading it.

I know sugar and alcohol don't help. They do wreck your emotions. I always post things I wouldn't normally when I have drunk too much. The sugar only makes me feel good for a short while and then I'm back to where I was. It's a quick fix solution to everything.

Thanks for all your replies. And here's a hug back.