Hmm I honestly think you put too much on your husband in regards to motivating you and guiding you or keeping you busy. The only people I motivate and guide are my students because they are minors plus have disabilities, I have no desire to guide an able bodied adult. Does your husband know you feel like this?
You don't have to be a leader to be successful. It appears that your job requires leadership skills and perhaps is too much for you. There is no shame in admitting that certain jobs just aren't for us. If you like retail why don't you try to go back to it? Or try something new? If your job brings no satisfaction, unless maybe it pays a ton or you are a sole provider, I'd go look for something else
As about doing things, we do lots on days off but on weekdays after work there is no energy or to do anything. I don't know too many people who can or want to do things after full time work shifts. There are times my husband can barely walk when he comes home, he wouldn't be physically capable of doing nothing even if he wanted.
Are you talking to your doc about depression? Or your t?
I personally feel ( might be wrong), that if you had a job you liked you'd feel different. And how about some girlfriends for free time when husband is watching tv? You don't need to stick by him all the time
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