well i suppose that if it is confidential i will reply. just to let you know, i am no longer anorexic/ bulimic, i overcame it about five months ago. so i will put my views of when i was in the eating disorder and now that i am fully recovered. also if this is any help: i had the disorder between the ages of 11 and 13. i am now 14.

while i was anorexic/ bulimic:
1. to be as thin and in shape as possible. beyonce (the singer) was so beautiful and i hated myself for not looking like her. so i punished myself, i felt like i was ugly and the only way that people would love me was if i was beautiful.

2. That 70's show it is very funny. (what does this have to do with eating disorders?? just wondering)

3. to be thin and beautiful.

4. running (which became very hard when i wasn't eating enough for energy) riding my dirt bike, hanging with friends, purging (not a hobby, but i did it enough that it could have been), watching movies, swimming competitively ( also difficult with no food), and reading.

5. beyonce, britney spears, models, people who i wanted to look like.

6.to be thinner, better looking.

7. yes! they practically make it seem like you HAVE to be thin. think about it even in disney movies the girl is super perfect and beautiful same with barbies. it is practically engrained into a woman's mind that that is the way a woman is supposed to look.

now that i am recovered:

1. i believe that beauty is being healthy. i don't think that you need to necessarily be thin, but you shouldn't be overweight either. i eat what i want but still exercise. actually now that i have gained 20 lbs. (i am now 5' 6" and 118 lbs. and during my eating disorder i was 5' 6"
and 98 lbs.) guys have been paying alot more attention to me. before when i was super thin no boys even looked my way, yet now (not to brag) i have guys coming up to me at least twice a week asking me to do something with them. my love life has definitely upped!

2. still that 70's show.

3. family, friends, to help others like me (i plan to be a psychologist)

4. same except for the purging thing. also i have a lot more energy now to run and swim.

5. actually now i dont have a role model, i am happy with the way my life is going and dont want to mold it around everyone else's. (people always tell me that i look like mandy moore if that counts)

6. i procrastinate too much with school work and chores, i put play before work. need to work on that.

7. still the same opinion as before.

well i hope that i could help email me if you have any further questions. my email address is sassybarrett@yahoo.com