I spent the day with M yesterday and he was more open, and affectionate with me than he had been before, I felt like he was including me in his life more, that he was letting me in. He talked about his clients at the group home, and his parents and plans he has for his house. There was a lot more affectionate touching and kisses. I see him needing a lot of time to be that comfortable and boy has it been a lot of time! It was something that had bothered me before, but I really didn't say a lot about it to him before, I just thought I would be patient and see how things would go. It really was a very nice day and I hated to say goodbye..he said, it's not goodbye, its until next time.

I've come to the conclusion that I want to try and not be so crazy emotional (hard to do I know) and just try to enjoy him and be the fun person that I know I can be so he can enjoy spending time with me. I need to stop putting pressure on myself and him to 'be' something. How about just being good company for one another?