Justy, hang in there, you will get through it and you are strong enough. I am sorry it's falling apart in all directions right now. Any way you can just take your kids and go to mom's? School is not the b all and end all and they can bring work with them. Here, in the states we get so locked into the regimine of school and work and it is not written in stone. Family comes first, whomever you deem those people to be. Also, my FIL has had three heart attacks and has managed well with proper treatment. So while it is scarey maybe it is better then your fear. Take a deep breath, let it out, drink some warm herb tea and tell us what's happening with dad and son. I wish you peace.