I am getting nervous. I waste my time a lot and then I regret the time I could have used to study.
I didn't study anything today. I had stuff to do, important, and I had to use some time to do it anyway.
Then I end up at the mall with my sister and my youngest cousins to watch an animated movie.
I hang out with them, I packed a lot of stuff, because I am moving out of the apartment next to the faculty. And I also waited some hours in line looking at my colleagues and comparing my messy look with the look of the other girls, wearing lots of make up, expensive handbags, fancy outfits... I feel bad about myself and small in these situations. I wish I knew a way to not feel like this and validate myself. But I think I can't keep a conversation with these girls or that what I have to say won't ever be interesting to them.