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Aug 26, 2016, 06:36 PM

Depressed.

Went biking today to help lessen the depression, but some asshole on a road bike cut me off to avoid hitting someone else, and his back tire flung a tiny rock in my eye. My eye stung, so I had to turn around early. Only did 8 miles round trip instead of my usual 15-20. That made me feel worse.

Possible trigger:

Then when I drove back home, I kept thinking "what if I just drove my car right into a tree or a ditch". At that point, I realized, "Well, no one would actually care, but... I'll probably create a mess that someone else has to clean up. Or someone else might feel guilty if they ended up hitting me."

I'm feeling "meh" still, but I guess not as bad as when I drove back home. I'm probably not going to go bike riding tomorrow just because I don't trust myself not to do anything rash.