I would never advocate drinking while depressed or bored but when in a decent mood I actually found alcohol made me able to cry and release a lot of inner tension that I hadn't been able to let go. Of course it's not a good coping method and this was not while I was feeling depressed. Since you are drinking though, it's at the very least good that I see you are only on Lamictal for your mood stabilizer since that's milder than say Lithium for example. I absolutely avoided drinking while on Lithium (can't even imagine how even more dehydrated it would have made me as well).

Sorry that things are so rough for you right now and I do hope things level out soon and you are able to keep your jobs.