This past session my therapist and I sort of got tense with one another, not wanting to go into the weekend upset, I asked him to offer me some words of comfort/support. But the last 5 minutes of my session was spent arguing because he refused to give me words of support.

I was so angry that I later texted him and cursed him out. He responded that we'll talk about it next session.

Today, I was feeling bad about what happened and texted him asking to speak with him on the phone for 2 minutes. I was planning on apologizing and I wanted to hear his voice to feel connected again.

However, he refused to talk over the phone and said we'll talk about it next session. (In the past he agreed to call me, happened once or twice over the past two years, so I don't know why he all of a sudden put up this boundary. I mean perhaps he was upset that I cursed him out but therapists should be able to understand where it's coming from...)

He was so stubborn that I just told him I am canceling my next session.

I am just so upset and angry and I feel really abandonded my him. I feel like he hates my guts. This whole episode confirms that I can't trust people, they'll turn on you any second. It is also confirms that I can't ever be loved.

I am so distraught and upset, I don't know what to do.