I think I may have ended my losing therapy streak of mumbletysome years. Huge breakthrough, followed by emailing 5 single-spaced pages of disclosure that would cause most therapists to hand me a referral while showing me the door--5 pages that she read and replied to in the best way possible, followed by sending her another document that she read and did not have time to respond to, but then followed up that she couldn't help herself and had to say something within the space of time she had. I'm a little stunned, but in a good way, considering there is anything good in all of this.