All the things I thought were issues, my in security, my need to call, the emails they all went away when I stopped with T. New T has said I can email or call anytime and I have called - you know what? She answered, she replied and through that I find myself feeling completely secure with the relationship. Yesterday I emailed with a scheduling question and then completely forgot I had until ages later. This is a huge deal!

My point is that you are not wrong for behaving how you do, you want her to hear you and to know she is there. She is unable to meet your needs but instead of communicating this to you in a calm way and then discussing WHY things are happening or how to help you, she is imposing massive walls. This shows she is not the one to help you because not only does she not know how but she has no interest in trying.

This is not a service you should pay for anymore. Having an attachment on an emotional level makes leaving almost impossible but you deserve support, compassion and help.