Today, my new pdoc said "You choose to get distressed; nobody can make you depressed except yourself." I find this very insulting, and very untrue. I said, to him, "Of course I don't believe this. What about people who are involved in a genocide? What about the seniors and disabled people who are bullied and mobbed [group bullies] so unmercifully senior and disabled public housing all over the United States, that just this month (August 2016) two states passed Stop Bullying in Public Housing laws?" The states are Massachusetts and Missouri. The pdoc said "Well, in almost all situations, you choose to ... [react the way I do.] I told him his remark sounds too New Age for me. He said, No, it's not New Age at all. It's very old. He mentioned the erroneous thinking modes. Yeah, Dr. David Burns' Cognitive Behavioral Therapy works POST something but it does NOT work to stop me from reacting. I worked the program a lot. He also suggested Mindfulness training, and I said absolutely not. Meditation is not my thing, the meditation forms I do are playing music and other creative activities. And that I have tried Mindfulness training by two different therapists, about 10 years apart for me, each of whom was trained by Dr. Marcia Linehan, and they were the coldest hardnoses I'd ever seen, and that I don't like cold people. These so-called therapists were scary, they were so hard nosed.

What are your impressions of these comments by my new pdoc, and his statement that my previous pdoc were (without using this word) essentiallly pampering me? He did not use the word "pampering' but did say that the results of the previous docs' handling of my case have been unsatisfactory for 10 years, and he's going to be doing something else in my case.

I don't like to be bossed around. He knows I am uncomfortable with what he is doing.