You have a fresh start, I think it is good. We all need affection and love...but we need to love ourselves first. The past two ladies...things have gone wrong in significant ways, it seems. Maybe you can talk to a therapist and get insight and guidance on meeting a woman that will treat you with care and respect? Explore yourself and how to be at peace alone and form healthier relationships. Looking back can help us look forward.

Wherever you move, you move with you. If you have any issues (who doesn't?), they followed you. You have "down time" in the social sense...how about making this time about you? Get to know yourself and a therapist can guide you, as well as help you through the grieving process from the recent young woman that mistreated you.

You aren't at fault or unworthy...I think you deserve more and need help discovering that path. What do you think?