I'm not an easy girl. That's the part that furiates me! I hadn't been with anyone for 2 years because I don't go for just any guy. He had been in love with someone before me, and they were engaged, and I guess she ended up cheating on him. He never told me this, I just heard through other people. I think it's why he moved away from home. (seems like the type of person who tries to run from his problems) From what I've learned from other guys who've had their heart broken is that the way they deal with it is by going around using girls. Like they are trying to get back at the girl that shattered them by treating all women like dirt. See, I can relate to that now. But, I certainly am not going to act on it, and punish other guys. I'm keeping to myself. Why should some innocent person suffer? I totally understood that he was probably still hurting from what the girl did to him, but man, why'd he have to go and pass that pain onto me? He was so lucky with me. He could have messed up some really psycho girl, and suffered property damage, slashed tires, and all that immature stuff. I guess I was just dealing with an emotionally dead human being. And now I'm messed up because I stupidly wonder, "Oh, why wasn't I special enough? Wasn't I pretty enough"........and all that crap that goes through a girls head. These guys just don't realize what they do. I can't even believe that they don't care. How can people be so heartless? How am I going to trust another guy again? He just didn't seem like that "type." I thought I was smarter than that. I thought I had a reputation for being a respected woman. I guess all that's been tested now. Oh, believe me, I wasn't easy before, and now I'm even tougher. It's just I know it's not healthy to harbor anger, but I don't know of any other way of coping, and honestly, for my personality, I think it's about time I express my anger. Just wish it could be directed toward him. He was too much of a coward though, and decided he doesn't have to listen about the harm his actions caused. Well, I'm getting a headache thinking about this too much, so I will stop here. Thanks everyone for listening.