What about expecting her to make up to YOU for how horrible she was to you?

Not happening, right? You've done your time. Take a leaf from her book. Plus I imagine you weren't horrible to her at all.

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What ATAT said. Granite, your mother made you believe you were horrible because what else can a child think when unthinkable things happen to them? That THEY are horrible...literally, children can not think otherwise. So when you grow up with years of systemic abuse...of course you are going to feel that way.

I really, really hope for the day you realize that you have every right to hate her. And when she calls and accuses you of doing "so much" for you, yet you are so ungrateful and hate her...that you can go "YES, and i have every reason to. Goodbye."

I will dance around in my apartment.

Granite, it's the mother who is horrible, not you. She has treated you horribly for so many years, ever since you were young. The mother has no right to harm you, and continue to harm you. You can feel whatever feelings you have about her. It is not wrong to hate the mother.