Fluctuating. There are some areas where I have pretty high self esteem - particularly when it comes to the things I'm good at (like writing, training dogs, and cooking) - and yet other areas where my self esteem tends to be pretty low (like socializing). Because of this, sometimes I feel very proud of myself, and great. Other times I feel I'm inferior and I feel low. Both affect my depression. My self esteem is a lot higher than it was a few years ago, though. And I definitely feel my depression was becoming easier to manage as a result (although it's been difficult the past few weeks due to adjusting to having a baby).