Oh granite. This is what I wish for you: a vacation out of state for at least three days at a luxury hotel with a spa You are going to a huge crafting trade show where you get to try all kinds of things and meet like minded people. The only rules are that you don't tell anyone you know that you are going or where you are going and you are not allowed to think of your family during this time. I wish you could break away and do something like that. Hugs