Leomama, thinking of you. Thanks for creating this thread.

I'm normally upbeat in nature but have been feeling very anxious the past couple of days. My C-PTSD got triggered and I don't know much at all on how to deal with it. My past therapy mainly focused on my bipolar disorder.

I am surprised at how bad and strange I feel after the trigger. I'm mad at myself for not realizing it was a trigger and avoiding it. I also am upset with myself that I don't know much about PTSD (other than the experience of having it) and that I didn't make it more of a priority in my treatment. I've always been too scared to face it.

I'll be alright but I need to learn to deal with this. I've always been too scared to come to this forum. So coming here today is my first step. I think I've been in denial of how much this illness affects me; avoiding it seemed safest but I'm paying the price now.