It definitely is like a drug. I can completely relate to this whole topic. I've been spending a lot of time watching self-help videos on recovering from being in a relationship with a narcissist. No Contact is so difficult, and I feel narcissists give us little "bread crumbs" that suck us back into a cycle....especially those of us with Borderline traits or BPD.

The narcissist I recently had a break up with still has a strong hold on me, although I try to fight it, but I definitely feel No Contact and gray rock are great methods. I failed at that the last time, and I was doing so well. I feel my progress went out the window! This is going to take time for those of us recovering from narcissistic abuse though, and it's a process that is not overnight. I do find reading and watching videos on this helps empower me though. Here's one about setting boundaries with a Narcissist that I find helpful: