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Originally Posted by TrailRunner14
Hi. I've been quiet for a bit. There has been a lot going on. Some has been good. Some has rocked me.
I hope everyone is good. I've been hanging and reading. Just didn't feel like saying much.
Your opinion, to me, would be very valued.
Last Monday I met with my counselor. He usually dresses in very calming colors. Soft colored plaid shirts and khaki pants. Never really thought about it. This past Monday he was wearing a long sleeve red/burgundy shirt and black pants. It didn't really register with me at the time but the session time we had was very strained. I knew that I didn't feel like I was making sense in what I was saying, but I don't think I was completely there.
I got home and was trying to sort out what was wrong. I just kept feeling stupid because I didn't think I had made any sense.
When I think back on my time with him, all I can see is the red shirt and black pants. It's really disturbing me and I'm not sure what to do about it.
I don't understand it.
Can anyone else relate?
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before I was integrated colors did not trigger me. this was because anything the least bit triggering I would dissociate and an alter would take control to handle that trigger. I was able to continue to live my life with out knowing and reacting to colors in any negative ways. that said after integration i found the wearing certain clothing items or being around certain smells and mens clothing was something to cause a moment of panic, anxiety. then i would use the breathing and other grounding techniques I learned in therapy to reground and no longer be anxious.
I have noticed people wearing long sleeves and long pants even though its summer, but that doesnt bother me considering America now has to deal with a virus carried by mosquitoes called Zika virus. people are just taking care of their self and doing what the center for disease control and some city and town officials says to do...wear long sleeves and long pants when outdoors to prevent mosquito bites.