I'm feeling way off ... I thought I was feeling better. I keep thinking maybe it's overthinking, unrealistic expectations, the reality of human nature. Innate selfishness. Can I skip addressing treating my C-PTSD since all my abusers died except my ex-husband? Is this of high enough caliber to help more than harm. People leaving. Ghosting. Bowing out. I get you.

I have OCD maybe I'm just ruminating. Highly preferable to a mood episode. I just feel weird. I can't figure out how to diffuse this.

No need to comment. It's verbal garbage.