i should feel good that i got through another crap week

in sted i am feeling.. why am i still here on earth?

i just can't work it out- if i'm meant to be alive (i don't feel alive right now), what am i meant to do here?

yesterday while talking to someone, (just a general conversation), he suddenly said- i think you need medical attention, i know it's not fun, but you have to do it

bit of a wake up call of how bad things were for me yesterday