before I was integrated colors did not trigger me. this was because anything the least bit triggering I would dissociate and an alter would take control to handle that trigger. I was able to continue to live my life with out knowing and reacting to colors in any negative ways. that said after integration i found the wearing certain clothing items or being around certain smells and mens clothing was something to cause a moment of panic, anxiety. then i would use the breathing and other grounding techniques I learned in therapy to reground and no longer be anxious.


I have noticed people wearing long sleeves and long pants even though its summer, but that doesnt bother me considering America now has to deal with a virus carried by mosquitoes called Zika virus. people are just taking care of their self and doing what the center for disease control and some city and town officials says to do...wear long sleeves and long pants when outdoors to prevent mosquito bites.