I find that writing things out here helps me feel better. I recommend it, actually. Writing things out helps me. It also helps, for some reason, to write it here. I think because I initially start it out, because I want help and support. This is what I wrote today.

I'm deeply sad today. I don't have a lot to do today. I keep thinking about things that make me feel really sad. I lost my friend. He didn't die, but it was time for us to part ways. And I miss him. I went to him all the time with stuff I needed to talk about. But he wasn't always very nice, or respectful towards me.

I wish it was Thursday. That's the day I see my therapist. I don't care for my psych nurse much, and was going to go to a different place, but can't bear the thought of seeing a different therapist. I tried and it didn't work.

I'm not working, and haven't been for a few years. I don't even know what it is I want to do. I'm getting vocational counseling from an agency. My worker is going to set me up with vocational testing. I'm excited about this, but he has been really slow to do it due to an illness he has. Like, its taken him over a month to get me a referral. Still don't have it. I feel like in a sense, this is unacceptable. I know he's sick, but maybe someone else can help me there. I will figure it out.

I made a list of things that make me feel better. My aim is to do some if not all of these things today.

Have a good day everyone!