I'm so upset. Trying to be there for my sister as she's suffering her bipolarity gets me tied in knots.
She didn't call her sons because she doesn't want them to think of her the way she thinks about our mother.
She said she puts on a different face for her T than the face for her pdoc. She thinks she has to fool them to get what she wants. Then she wants me to act like her therapist and be her best friend.
I'm having trouble with boundaries, I guess. How can I help without getting hurt myself? She seems fragile, so I let my guard down. Then she snaps back and uses my words against me.
When I'm going through the crises with her, I feel like my karma is good. Then, when I have quiet time, it all catches up with me and I feel this awful resentment.
I need a good and healthy, mature mother to talk to.
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