Apfei, it sounds like Scrabble, under the conditions in which you would be forced to play, causes an awful lot of tension. Go back to your original post here and read your own description. I think you will see that you don't really want to continue with it, you're just having a hard time making the break.

Look at the decision this way: How will my life improve when I trade Scrabble for cooking?

((Long, strong hug)) It's a big decision. I understand.