I was doing so well all week at my conference. The motivational speakers had me feeling in charge. I had a plan to get along in life with h. Then I got together with him. He did his button pressing, drive me to the moon thing that he keeps gaslighting me with and then pretending it's all new to him. I went into total anxiety attack futility mode.

There is no DBT workbook that can diffuse this.

I fooled myself to think I could handle being with him.

It has been seven hours, and my head is still throbbing, stomach still in knots, heart aches, neck feels like I have whiplash, joints ache.

I told him I am never setting foot back in the house again.

I know I said that I'm going to stop posting about my h on here, so I will.

No one can help me. I just have to really stay away and find the strength to move on.

It's like I keep putting my hand on the hot stove and thinking I won't get burned.

It's a PTSD reaction, but the trauma is current! I am traumatized by a man who keeps doing the same things to me that traumatize me, and acting like it's all new to him.

It's too unbelievable for anyone to believe! I don't even know what section to post in anymore.