TishaBuv, I understand how you feel. I have been in your shoes. I understand about wanting to feel loved, wanted,and nurtured, No matter how many times he said sorry or that the would change his behaviors remained the same. It wasn't until we recently started seeing a therapist that I realized how much he triggered me with his behaviors. He is finally beginning to realize how his treatment of me reminds me of how I was treated as a child. We couldn't communicate. He would go silent and pull away and I would rage and pull away and the anger would fester. He finally agreed to therapy which I am truly grateful for because he finally sees what has been missing and what I needed. I learned how to better engage him and ask for what I need. Its not easy. We are taking it one day at a time but I notice a difference. Did you guys try counseling? Does he know how he affects you? Do you have your own T? Has it always been this way or did it happen gradually? I empathize with you. HUGS