I'm glad you called him Pink when you felt the SI coming on...I so wanted to call my T this weekend before I made yet another big mistake...

I didn't have him or anyone to call and I tried to deal with the pain but to no avail...I couldn't bring myself to call him, it would've sent me way over the edge when he didn't call back.

I'll have to think of something else as a coping mechanism but it is so hard.

I'm not so sure you were testing your T, maybe you really didn't need him to call back hence why you said it. There have been those times when you say call me back so I tend to believe in your gut feeling even if it did feel the exact opposite later on.

I'd go with your gut...